purpose

After I quit my day job not too long ago, I was so excited to start really living life, you know?  Not having to go to bed early, get up at the crack of dawn, work all day for not much more than minimum wage & come home so tired I didn't want to do anything but sit.

The first morning of freedom consisted of me getting up with my husband, making his lunch, making coffee for myself, and dedicating the full day to my business.  It felt nothing short of amazing.  I just knew that every day was going to be like this.  Right?.... Wrong.

More often than not, I find myself oversleeping.  No early morning coffee or dedication.  Most days I put off my to-do list until "tomorrow", only to find that "tomorrow" doesn't come until a week later.  Seriously, what is happening to me?  I realize it's only been a month, but I feel as though I am sinking here.

Don't get me wrong, I do not want to go back to work.  My business is thriving and I'm making more than enough to compensate for my not working a real job.  I just feel as though I have nothing to push me forward; no purpose.  And to be honest, no energy.  (I blame part of that on my autoimmune disorder, but I have to take partial credit because naps just feel so good.)

And when I start dwelling on how unproductive I've been, I get really blah and down on myself and that makes me want to do even less.  The weather doesn't help (trek outside in that? No, thank you).  But how many excuses can I make before it just sounds redundant?  

How do I find my purpose?  How do I fill my days with meaning and productivity?  Where do I find the energy to start anew?  I love the days when Will is at home with me because we get to spend time together and I'm not left trying to fill the void for the 8+ hours he's at work (not to mention the three nights a week he's in class until 10:30p).  

How do you find balance in your life and feel accomplished when you lay down your head each night?